Friday, February 06, 2004
Like PMS all the time
I'm not cranky today! Not so far, at least. Maybe it's because it's Friday, I don't know, but it's unusual for me these days.
I just seem to have very little patience lately. Not that I fly off the handle, but I seem to be incapable of pretending. This is a dangerous thing, and it certainly points up the extent to which we pretend on a day-to-day basis in order to keep the social order in order. Lately, if someone says something that bugs me, or is obviously full of crap, I just turn right off.
I don't like being that way. I like to think of myself as a reasonably generous and loving person, someone who is tolerant of other people's foibles. Because hey, not many people have more foibles than me, right?
I am still tolerant and happy around my own family, ie. my husband and my kids. So fortunately things are fine when I'm at home. I'm just trying to avoid social situations where I may be tempted to say: "that's bullshit", or "Give me a friggin' break!"
But today I seem to be like my old, pre-pregnancy self (well, on a good day): optimistic and happy to talk and listen. It's fun!
For now.
I'm not cranky today! Not so far, at least. Maybe it's because it's Friday, I don't know, but it's unusual for me these days.
I just seem to have very little patience lately. Not that I fly off the handle, but I seem to be incapable of pretending. This is a dangerous thing, and it certainly points up the extent to which we pretend on a day-to-day basis in order to keep the social order in order. Lately, if someone says something that bugs me, or is obviously full of crap, I just turn right off.
I don't like being that way. I like to think of myself as a reasonably generous and loving person, someone who is tolerant of other people's foibles. Because hey, not many people have more foibles than me, right?
I am still tolerant and happy around my own family, ie. my husband and my kids. So fortunately things are fine when I'm at home. I'm just trying to avoid social situations where I may be tempted to say: "that's bullshit", or "Give me a friggin' break!"
But today I seem to be like my old, pre-pregnancy self (well, on a good day): optimistic and happy to talk and listen. It's fun!
For now.
# posted by becca : 8:28 AM
